Elijah

In 1 kings 18 Elijah challenged the prophets of Baal to a test to see if their God could beat the Lord. "Let them therefore give us two bullocks; and let them choose one bullock for themselves, and cut it in pieces, and lay it on wood, and put no fire under: and I will dress the other bullock, and lay it on wood, and put no fire under: And call ye on the name of your gods, and I will call on the name of the Lord: and the God that answereth by fire, let him be God." (verse 23-24) I kind of had to laugh at verse 27 when "Elijah mocked them." But anyways in verse 29 we read about the response of their Gods, "there was neither voice, nor any answer, nor any that regarded." Just goes to show that Satan really doesn't care, and besides he was being challenged by the Lord. We all know he doesn't stand a chance right? Lets see what the Lord did. Elijah had water poured on the wood several times, probably to remove any doubt about the Lords power. After pouring water on the wood several times "the fire of the Lord fell, and consumed the burnt sacrifice."

In 1 Kings 19 Jezebel seeks the life of Elijah after he had proved these prophets of Baal wrong. In verse 4 we read, "But he [Elijah] himself went a day's journey into the wilderness, and came and sat down under a juniper tree: and he requested for himself that he might die; and said, It is enough; now, O Lord, take away my life; for I am not better than my fathers." After this an angel comes two times to feed Elijah and he continues his journey.

So I have a few questions for you all, because I'm a bit confused. First, why did Elijah want to die? I've re read that and thought about it and I honestly don't know. Secondly how is the Lord showing Elijah his love in this story?